Ministry of Reality Monday: facing the reality
A bunch of my fellow mothering peeps have been writing posts every week about "real" moments, not just the shiny, happy blogpost-worthy moments, of motherhood. I fully intended to participate, but, to be honest, usually on Mondays, I don't feel up to facing reality. Either I'm in a really good mood, and don't want to think about "real." Or I'm too grumpy, I couldn't show that side of myself on the internet.
My true confession: most of the time, I don't feel cut out for the stay-at-home-mom gig.
It's complicated to say that. Because it doesn't mean that I don't love my kids or want to be with them. Nor does it mean that I don't embrace the ennobling aspects of raising children. It's hard to make the mothering jive with the other desires and gifts rolling around in my head. And I wonder how to play things out practically.
I keep trying to write a post about this, but I can't quite explain it. What IS real? The truth is, I'm trying to figure out a lot. It's part of the reason, I haven't been blogging so much. I used to just brain barf on my blog, now I don't feel so free to do that.
If we could just paint all day, I'm sure that would help. Who needs to tidy up and do laundry anyway?
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I know how you feel about not
I know how you feel about not being stay-at-home-momish. I feel like that too, only I also don't feel like getting a real job, so where does that leave me?
And painting sounds like a grand idea.
That picture is wonderful!
That picture is wonderful! And I understand completely about the mixed feelings surrounding staying home with kids. For me, though, it's definitely gotten easier as my kid has gotten older. Hopefully it will for you too.
Yes! I understand some of
Yes! I understand some of these thoughts and have them myself. If you ever get around to writing more, I will definitely be interested in reading more. : )
I've felt those same
I've felt those same conflicting thoughts too. Usually, though, the tyrannies of life dictated to me whether I worked (and fit in the mommy thing) or stayed home only. It does get easier as the kids are older, don't need as much of your time constantly, and you're freed up to do more on your own -- but a lot of that depends on your making it happen. I only see you in blog-land these days, but it seems to me that you have a deep love for being creative, and creativity longs to be satisfied. I hope very soon you'll find a satisfying outlet for your gifts (which are many). It doesn't have to be full-time work, of course; may God drop a great option in your lap :)
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